Daily Workout Thread Weds 10.26

[ammayernyc]

Hi all.

Well, I had my trainer this morning and she pushed me really hard. Two days in a row with her is a lot tougher than I thought it would be! But, I must, must, MUST go because I had a major attack of the fatties this morning when I saw myself in the mirror while getting dressed and actually said to myself ''you are morbidly obese.'' This is not factually true, but I couldn''t believe I let myself get to this point. I feel a little better now since I found something to wear that I actually don''t feel gigantic in, but I''m so frustrated with this slow going. I don''t even know if I''m losing weight since nothing seems to fit better. My trainer says she sees differences, but I just can''t. I feel good, or at least okay, when I have no clothes on, but once I have to put on those pants, forget it. It''s gross out time.

I''ve decided to try to bring my lunch to work from now on, since I don''t seem to stray (as much) when I have the food already here and I can''t give in to temptation. I made dinner last night and actually had the proper portion size for once, and I was surprised by the fact that I was full afterwards. I did have some wine, but I needed something to kick start the sleeping pill since I''ve been sleeping horribly.

I''m still dreaming about liposuction and wiring my jaw shut, but I know those are only short term answers.

 

[flutterby]

Glad someone is making it to the gym! i really think i may need to start with my trainer again. i havent been to the gym for days and days and days. We were in Vegas for the weekend and I did ok with food (if okay includes lobster raviolli, crab cakes, hot dogs and crepes...in moderation) but i did go for hour long jog/walks every morning when i got up.

Bringing food to work is such a great idea. i know it helps when i do it, as long as i eat it and not still go out lunch!

 

[IrishEyes]

Date: 10/26/2005 4:01:15 PM
Author:AmandaPanda
Hi all.

Well, I had my trainer this morning and she pushed me really hard. Two days in a row with her is a lot tougher than I thought it would be! But, I must, must, MUST go because I had a major attack of the fatties this morning when I saw myself in the mirror while getting dressed and actually said to myself ''you are morbidly obese.'' This is not factually true, but I couldn''t believe I let myself get to this point. I feel a little better now since I found something to wear that I actually don''t feel gigantic in, but I''m so frustrated with this slow going. I don''t even know if I''m losing weight since nothing seems to fit better. My trainer says she sees differences, but I just can''t. I feel good, or at least okay, when I have no clothes on, but once I have to put on those pants, forget it. It''s gross out time.

I''ve decided to try to bring my lunch to work from now on, since I don''t seem to stray (as much) when I have the food already here and I can''t give in to temptation. I made dinner last night and actually had the proper portion size for once, and I was surprised by the fact that I was full afterwards. I did have some wine, but I needed something to kick start the sleeping pill since I''ve been sleeping horribly.

I''m still dreaming about liposuction and wiring my jaw shut, but I know those are only short term answers.

Oh Amanda, don''t be so hard on yourself!!! I know that is easier said than done, but it''s so very true. I don''t know how much you are trying to lose, but when I read your comments on what you said to yourself in the mirror, I had a flashback to my own "mirror experience" a year and a half ago. I have lost 35 pounds in the last 1.5 years, but before that, I used to say the same things to myself. I would tell myself ( and my friends and husband

) how "gross" I thought I was and how I was just a blob and ugly, etc, etc. Then I fell ill and it really got my butt in gear to make some changes. I am like you - I''m very impatient and wanted to see results NOW. But it just took time. I can honestly say that I never even noticed the small changes along the way. I never looked in the mirror at 2 months, 8 months or a year into my new lifestyle and said "oh yeah, smaller thighs" or "yup, I''ve lost inches on my waist". It just didn''t happen like that for me. Then suddenly about 5 months ago or something, I was getting dressed one morning and it hit me: I was putting on a pair of jeans that were 4 sizes smaller than I used to be. I looked in the mirror and there it was: ME. a smaller me, FINALLY! and I was so happy that I finally felt like I had triumphed. Not just because I am smaller than I used to be, but also because i''m healthier. I also realized that tormenting yourself - telling yourself you are gross and ugly and worse - telling your friends and family that same thing - is not the way to go. I know it sounds cheesy, but think of those "self-help mantras" and start telling yourself that while you''d like to see a smaller you, you are still a wonderful person and have beautiful eyes/nose/butt, whatever. And NEVER, under ANY circumstances, let others know your self-doubts. Many times others would never even see your flaws - unless of course until you point them out to them. I stopped telling my husband a long time ago that I thought I was sub-par. Now when he looks at me and says "you''re so beautiful", I just smile and give him a jab and say "I know! and thank you!!"

I hope this helps you a little. You sound like you are really putting in a ton of effort into improving yourself, and I think that you will continue to! Don''t get too down on yourself. Every woman is beautiful in her own unique way. Remember that and try to find the beauty within yourself!