Parsley
Shiny_Rock
- Joined
- Aug 29, 2009
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Hey ladies,
Not sure how many people are still around from when I was here, I hope not a lot, and that you're all off on BWW or NewlyWeds!
So I feel like an idiot and I thought I was most likely to find people who had had similar experiences here.
I've been with my BF for nearly 7 months now, and I'm ridiculously happy. Like...stupidly happy, head in the clouds happy. He's the kind of person that this time last year I had decided didn't exist outside of the movies, and had all but given up on.
To cover this, I am VERY big on not rushing things. Not to pass judgement on anyone else, my personal opinion is one of if I believe I have forever with him, what's the rush? I have made this clear to him and he reciprocates.
We have spoken about our future, and moving in together at some point in the next couple of years, which I am fine with. We've spoken about taking a gap year maybe, again thinking about enjoying everything we can as young people before responsibilities grow too huge!
However. *sigh*. I am afraid that a part of me is a real girl. Not as part of a conversation about us having kids, but in a general conversation about baby names he said he would like to give his children traditional names from his area of England, which I liked the idea of. At some point after that I was sat at home mooching around the internet before I went to bed and thought I would look up some of these names to see what they were like. This is when the girl who has been thinking about and loving everything to do with weddings since she can remember emerged. After having looked at these names and sparked a sentimental side to me...I almost don't want to admit it! I looked up wedding venues in his area too. Ergh. I'm almost ashamed of myself. I wasn't looking in any seriousness, just to see the beautiful buildings and houses in the area and indulge in a little daydream.
Then..today he was using my computer and put something into google...and the names search term came up, and he mentioned it. I'll admit, I panicked and said I'd heard something on telly about these names and was interested in their meanings. Believe me, I wish I'd just explained but it was so unexpected that it just came out, you know? Anyway, he seemed fine, and we carried on as before and it was all good. Today was the last time I'll see him until New Year so we had an extra long goodbye, and just as he left he talked about something we'd joked about having when we do eventually live together, and said don't worry, we'll have that one day. He didn't seem freaked out by it.
Since then though..I put stuff into google and saw the wedding venue term come up, and my heart dropped. I feel utterly awful and just...embarrassed and ridiculous and all sorts. I sent him my address a little later by text, and there's no reply yet. 98% of me knows that he's rubbish with his phone and I often get replies many hours after I send them, but there's still that 2% that is building this all up.
Please tell me some of you have experienced similar?! Help!
Not sure how many people are still around from when I was here, I hope not a lot, and that you're all off on BWW or NewlyWeds!
So I feel like an idiot and I thought I was most likely to find people who had had similar experiences here.
I've been with my BF for nearly 7 months now, and I'm ridiculously happy. Like...stupidly happy, head in the clouds happy. He's the kind of person that this time last year I had decided didn't exist outside of the movies, and had all but given up on.
To cover this, I am VERY big on not rushing things. Not to pass judgement on anyone else, my personal opinion is one of if I believe I have forever with him, what's the rush? I have made this clear to him and he reciprocates.
We have spoken about our future, and moving in together at some point in the next couple of years, which I am fine with. We've spoken about taking a gap year maybe, again thinking about enjoying everything we can as young people before responsibilities grow too huge!
However. *sigh*. I am afraid that a part of me is a real girl. Not as part of a conversation about us having kids, but in a general conversation about baby names he said he would like to give his children traditional names from his area of England, which I liked the idea of. At some point after that I was sat at home mooching around the internet before I went to bed and thought I would look up some of these names to see what they were like. This is when the girl who has been thinking about and loving everything to do with weddings since she can remember emerged. After having looked at these names and sparked a sentimental side to me...I almost don't want to admit it! I looked up wedding venues in his area too. Ergh. I'm almost ashamed of myself. I wasn't looking in any seriousness, just to see the beautiful buildings and houses in the area and indulge in a little daydream.
Then..today he was using my computer and put something into google...and the names search term came up, and he mentioned it. I'll admit, I panicked and said I'd heard something on telly about these names and was interested in their meanings. Believe me, I wish I'd just explained but it was so unexpected that it just came out, you know? Anyway, he seemed fine, and we carried on as before and it was all good. Today was the last time I'll see him until New Year so we had an extra long goodbye, and just as he left he talked about something we'd joked about having when we do eventually live together, and said don't worry, we'll have that one day. He didn't seem freaked out by it.
Since then though..I put stuff into google and saw the wedding venue term come up, and my heart dropped. I feel utterly awful and just...embarrassed and ridiculous and all sorts. I sent him my address a little later by text, and there's no reply yet. 98% of me knows that he's rubbish with his phone and I often get replies many hours after I send them, but there's still that 2% that is building this all up.
Please tell me some of you have experienced similar?! Help!
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