Family leaving today...so sad!!!

[Mandarine]

My two sisters, nephews (10 month and 3-year old) and BIL are leaving today

I am just SO sad!....they've been here for 2 weeks but it seems like it was just a couple of days!. I had such a great time with my little nephews...they're at the cutest age and it makes me so mad that I'm just missing all this!!!!.

I'm so family oriented and yet here I am, with NO family around and with my BF living 1 hour from me....so basically, I'm alone most of the time!!!!.

I know it's my choice, and here is where my job is and all that, but sometimes I wonder if it's worth it. Is it worth missing all this important time with my nephews? not being with my parents, my sisters, my entire family!...

Of course all this has me way to depressed today!....My eyes are so fat from tears that if I blink all the tears will be coming down non-stop!......and then of course this all turns into realizing that if at least I knew when me and my FF were getting married then maybe it wouldn't feel so bad.....and then it turns into questioning "what is HE waiting for???" all over again...just one of those days.

And to top it all off I got a huge pimple on my chin (I never get pimples!)...I'm guessing is from stress.

Ok, not making much sense and I blinked!

Edited: to fix some grammar...

 

[ephemery1]

Awwww, Mandarine, I'm a family-oriented person too so I TOTALLY feel your pain... I would be miserable being far away, especially if I had little nieces or nephews like that. You're allowed to be this upset... it sucks saying goodbye indefinitely.

But then remind yourself that this is just one phase in your life, and you don't know what the future may bring... things do work out the way they are supposed to. When you and your future-fiance are finally married and building your own family, you could end up back with your family again... or his... or people could move out where you are... you never know. The important thing is just to acknowledge how much your family means to you (which obviously you are doing) and let yourself feel sad about them leaving... but then take a deep breath and remember how lucky you are to have them in the first place, then do something tonight to cheer yourself up. Ice cream always works for me!

ETA: Huge pimple on my chin too... see? I really am feeling your pain.

 

[akw94]

Mandarine,
I''m so sorry that your family has to leave. I''m sure that is tough, especially tough since your bf doesn''t live in the area. For me lately, when one thing upsets me, everything upsets me so I can only imagine handling all that by yourself. However, you CAN do it and it''s not forever. Keep that 2006 timeline in mind and remember that the year''s half over so it''s almost there. Will your bf be moving to you once you are engaged or married?
I agree to do something to try and take your mind off of things. Maybe you can start planning your next trip out to visit them or have a friend come and visit sometime in the near future.
And only 4 more days until the weekend (I know, sad to be already counting on Monday but...)!

Take care of yourself today!

 

[Mandarine]

aww...thank you girls

It''s really do hard. My sisters are my best friends and not having them around everyday is just so hard. My older sister lives in Spain so we only see each other like once a year....I really can''t even tell you how hard it is. I know today at the airport it won''t be pretty!...

My nephew called me at the office (with my sister''s help) and he was just crying because HE didn''t want to leave!. My sister said that this morning he saw the suitcases and started crying!

Thank you for your nice messages and for letting me get my feelings out!...even at the cafateria the caterers were so worried about me because I really do look like I''m about to start bawling my eyes out!

M~

 

[bee*]

thats really upsetting that they have to go home. I can only imagine how you''re feeling-my mother went to france three weeks ago and has another 3 weeks to go before she comes home and its horrible without her over here.

 

[akw94]

Feeling any better today?

 

[Mandarine]

No

My little sister actually left today (I just dropped her off at the airport) my house feels SO empty!!!!!!!!!

Luckily, she did help me clean up (the house can become pretty messy with two little ones + my dog running around!)...

*sighs*.....we did our share of crying at the airport yesterday, and again a little today!....I''m going to miss them so much. I think it''s harder on me because they came here and then left, so the house feels empty. For them, they go back home and it''s a little bit different...

My BF was so sweet, he sent me the cutest e-card telling me my nephews were so cluky to have an aunt like me, and he was very lucky to have me too

...that did make me smile

It was so great having everyone here!!!. I love them!....I wish they lived here and we could hang out all the time!!

I hope you guys are well! Thanks for the nice messages!

M~

 

[fisherofmengirly]

Oh sweet Mandarine! I''m sorry you''re missing your family. I HATE leaving mine or having to watch them leave. It stinks.

Did you take lots of pictures? It helps me a lot when I have those to look at. My first day back from vacation, I printed something like 120 pictures, and I look at them all the time! It''s a slight relief, and it helps.

I hope you had a wonderful visit and that not too much time passes before you see them again!!

 

[akw94]

Next time, have them all leave on the same day! I am sure two days of saying goodbye was very tough. Sorry

Any plans for the weekend that might cheer you up?
That was very nice of your bf to send that e-card. Little things like that are always great!
Hope you''re feeling better.

 

[IrishAngel7982]

I hope you''re feeling better Mandarine! When is the next time you all will get together? Being apart is super tough...hugs for you!