SparklyGirl*
Shiny_Rock
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So again last night my bf and I were on our way to teach at band. Ok, so everything was going good, B was being very nice and then he mentioned that his father could no longer go with us to the drum corps show (the place where i pretty much figured out that he would propose at) on August 4th. Ok no biggie, he can propose without his dad there. lol.
So the thing that bothered me was that he then asked me which show i would rather go to. (there is another show but in a a different place the day before). Well since i thought he would ask at the August 4th one i obviously thought that he wanted to go to that one! So i said oh well that one. and he just seemed like he didnt care which one and asked me again which one! So i began to think that he had either never planned on asking then or changed his mind because he thought i knew he was up to something. So i said well you can just pick..thinking that he would pick the August 4th one and so we were loud about it and he said fine then August 4th! So we are still going to the same place but im not sure of anything anymore. The only thing that I can put together with this part is that he thought i had an idea that he would ask then and wanted to see if id freak out when he suggested going to the other show.
Then in my fit of madeness since i was driving B needed something out of the car during practice, so i had to call someone and leave teaching practice to the guard girls and have them bring my other key cuz i locked the keys in my car!
So then after we were done teaching, B and I drove home and he kept asking me what was wrong and i said nothing. Then he left. So i texted him and said, "im so sorry. It just kills me to know that the thing that i want the most in the world is for you to propose."
And we texted back and forth him saying the following things, which made me feel better by ALOT!
I know babe, and i want that too..itll be alrite..i promise, i love you.
I know its hard.. i love you.
I know, i hate seeing you like this babe it make me feel terrible,,u just need to know that it will get better here real soon.really.
i want to ask so bad right now. I wish you were me and understood.
Nothing is holding me back. I love you too much and want to see you happy.
Ok so i said a lot of stuff inbetween those and then i texted and asked him if what is holding him back is when he wants to ask...and he wrote..
Maybe..lets just say that my plans arent something im gonna wait around for i cant and dont want to.
Wow, so i am beginning to think asking at the show August 4th was "the plan" because by that message...it seems like he will ask sooner!
I was just so upset and its just hard not knowing what he is thinking. But the texts did help and its weird cuz i was ok with him asking me August 4th but he really seems like he cant even wait that long!
And it was funny because I keep my best friend updated on all of this and after i told her about the texts she was like...oh A its going to happen sooner than August 4th, its different this time he is really stepping up! I'm an outside source, I see whats going on! He wants it to happen sooner!
Haha it was just very funny. I guess she could be right as outside people that arent you usually see thing that you dont.
Well this post started out sad but ended happy...for now. Im only upset at the fact that i am clueless to everything he knows about the engagement..If he want to ask sooner than August 4th, go ahead baby! Right now i think that its best if i just breathe and just be okay with whats going on because to face the facts...i really dont know what he is up to because im not him. So i guess that I will just have to suck it up, believe what he texted me and try to enjoy this period of having no idea what the crap is going on with it!
I guess its moving along though because he is acting very different since we saw that pretty diamond so he probably is just figuring out when. which im sorry, i probably sound ungrateful but it so hard to know that all he is waiting for is the "when".
Thanks for listening any advice/thoughts that will help me?
So the thing that bothered me was that he then asked me which show i would rather go to. (there is another show but in a a different place the day before). Well since i thought he would ask at the August 4th one i obviously thought that he wanted to go to that one! So i said oh well that one. and he just seemed like he didnt care which one and asked me again which one! So i began to think that he had either never planned on asking then or changed his mind because he thought i knew he was up to something. So i said well you can just pick..thinking that he would pick the August 4th one and so we were loud about it and he said fine then August 4th! So we are still going to the same place but im not sure of anything anymore. The only thing that I can put together with this part is that he thought i had an idea that he would ask then and wanted to see if id freak out when he suggested going to the other show.
Then in my fit of madeness since i was driving B needed something out of the car during practice, so i had to call someone and leave teaching practice to the guard girls and have them bring my other key cuz i locked the keys in my car!
So then after we were done teaching, B and I drove home and he kept asking me what was wrong and i said nothing. Then he left. So i texted him and said, "im so sorry. It just kills me to know that the thing that i want the most in the world is for you to propose."
And we texted back and forth him saying the following things, which made me feel better by ALOT!
I know babe, and i want that too..itll be alrite..i promise, i love you.
I know its hard.. i love you.
I know, i hate seeing you like this babe it make me feel terrible,,u just need to know that it will get better here real soon.really.
i want to ask so bad right now. I wish you were me and understood.
Nothing is holding me back. I love you too much and want to see you happy.
Ok so i said a lot of stuff inbetween those and then i texted and asked him if what is holding him back is when he wants to ask...and he wrote..
Maybe..lets just say that my plans arent something im gonna wait around for i cant and dont want to.
I was just so upset and its just hard not knowing what he is thinking. But the texts did help and its weird cuz i was ok with him asking me August 4th but he really seems like he cant even wait that long!
And it was funny because I keep my best friend updated on all of this and after i told her about the texts she was like...oh A its going to happen sooner than August 4th, its different this time he is really stepping up! I'm an outside source, I see whats going on! He wants it to happen sooner!
Haha it was just very funny. I guess she could be right as outside people that arent you usually see thing that you dont.
Well this post started out sad but ended happy...for now. Im only upset at the fact that i am clueless to everything he knows about the engagement..If he want to ask sooner than August 4th, go ahead baby! Right now i think that its best if i just breathe and just be okay with whats going on because to face the facts...i really dont know what he is up to because im not him. So i guess that I will just have to suck it up, believe what he texted me and try to enjoy this period of having no idea what the crap is going on with it!
Thanks for listening any advice/thoughts that will help me?