Per diamondseeker's request, I'm starting my own SMTB thread for my 20th anniversary, 50th birthday present.
I've been a lurker for many years long before I joined in 2015. PriceScope has been my constant companion in life, seeing me through illness, then, a horrific and tragic loss. You've provided me an escape from unimaginable sorrow, day in, day out. You don't know me but you've propped me up when I really needed it the most. You continue to do so. And for that I thank you.
You see, I've been ill for so long. And the times when I was bedridden, unable to move, I needed something to distract me from my physical pain. My love for jewelry led me to discover PriceScope. And through hospitalizations, infusions, chemotherapy, PS was there with me. Constantly. I don't mind the illness. In fact, I would gladly go through all that I've been through physically a million, billion, gazillion times over if it meant my son would return to me. I was ready to go. I was at peace with my illness. But then, my son left instead. You see, I lost my only child a few years ago. There was no rhyme nor reason for his passing.
I'm the luckiest mother out there for having a son so gracious, accepting, forgiving, loving, funny and smart. He's beloved by everyone he met. To this day, he is profoundly loved and affectionately remembered. A college graduate newly promoted in his first job, he left us a day before what would've been his 23rd birthday. I was devastated. I still am. And those who say I need to "move on" don't understand that when you lost the love of your life, there is no such thing. He was my meaning, my purpose, my smile.
I'm sharing all this because I want to thank you, PriceScope. You were with me. Always. And I want the world to know that I am the mother of a son who was a kind and decent human being with an enormous heart. A young man who had this gift of making you feel special...like you're his best friend, even if you just met him. He would invite a stranger who seems like a loner to his parties just so that stranger wouldn't feel so alone. He's known on campus as the life of the party...always happy, never cruel, never judgmental. His smile was as big as his heart. My son is someone who I can only aspire to be. I am very lucky indeed.
I also want the world to know I'm lucky and grateful for having a partner who, in spite of her own grief, nursed me back to what now seems like a semblance of a life. My partner, family and friends knew I needed distractions, in all shapes or form. They'd give me projects, big or small just to keep me busy. My partner even bought me different stones in the course of 3 years but I'd always find a reason to get rid of them (Hegemony Cricket's mom now owns one of my stones). In fact, I almost got rid of the emerald I have now. Nothing seems to bring me joy. I thought a diamond's glow doesn't compare to the warm hugs of the person who gave you so much joy in your life. Not even close. How frivolous, I thought.
In my despair, I was missing an important point, however. What I realized is my partner was trying to spark a bit of life back in me...to ignite some interest in all the things I used to love (learning i.e. education, fashion, history and jewelry). She's been my rock, my support, my everything now. I wouldn't be here were it not for her. If not for family and friends. My partner of 20 years who helped me raise my beautiful, wonderful son would urge me to log on to PriceScope hoping that it would somehow cheer me up. So yes, you, PriceScope members have also been part of my long, arduous, heartbreaking journey of life, love and loss. Thank you. Thank you for sharing all your stories. Thank you for listening to mine.
I've been a lurker for many years long before I joined in 2015. PriceScope has been my constant companion in life, seeing me through illness, then, a horrific and tragic loss. You've provided me an escape from unimaginable sorrow, day in, day out. You don't know me but you've propped me up when I really needed it the most. You continue to do so. And for that I thank you.
You see, I've been ill for so long. And the times when I was bedridden, unable to move, I needed something to distract me from my physical pain. My love for jewelry led me to discover PriceScope. And through hospitalizations, infusions, chemotherapy, PS was there with me. Constantly. I don't mind the illness. In fact, I would gladly go through all that I've been through physically a million, billion, gazillion times over if it meant my son would return to me. I was ready to go. I was at peace with my illness. But then, my son left instead. You see, I lost my only child a few years ago. There was no rhyme nor reason for his passing.
I'm the luckiest mother out there for having a son so gracious, accepting, forgiving, loving, funny and smart. He's beloved by everyone he met. To this day, he is profoundly loved and affectionately remembered. A college graduate newly promoted in his first job, he left us a day before what would've been his 23rd birthday. I was devastated. I still am. And those who say I need to "move on" don't understand that when you lost the love of your life, there is no such thing. He was my meaning, my purpose, my smile.
I'm sharing all this because I want to thank you, PriceScope. You were with me. Always. And I want the world to know that I am the mother of a son who was a kind and decent human being with an enormous heart. A young man who had this gift of making you feel special...like you're his best friend, even if you just met him. He would invite a stranger who seems like a loner to his parties just so that stranger wouldn't feel so alone. He's known on campus as the life of the party...always happy, never cruel, never judgmental. His smile was as big as his heart. My son is someone who I can only aspire to be. I am very lucky indeed.
I also want the world to know I'm lucky and grateful for having a partner who, in spite of her own grief, nursed me back to what now seems like a semblance of a life. My partner, family and friends knew I needed distractions, in all shapes or form. They'd give me projects, big or small just to keep me busy. My partner even bought me different stones in the course of 3 years but I'd always find a reason to get rid of them (Hegemony Cricket's mom now owns one of my stones). In fact, I almost got rid of the emerald I have now. Nothing seems to bring me joy. I thought a diamond's glow doesn't compare to the warm hugs of the person who gave you so much joy in your life. Not even close. How frivolous, I thought.
In my despair, I was missing an important point, however. What I realized is my partner was trying to spark a bit of life back in me...to ignite some interest in all the things I used to love (learning i.e. education, fashion, history and jewelry). She's been my rock, my support, my everything now. I wouldn't be here were it not for her. If not for family and friends. My partner of 20 years who helped me raise my beautiful, wonderful son would urge me to log on to PriceScope hoping that it would somehow cheer me up. So yes, you, PriceScope members have also been part of my long, arduous, heartbreaking journey of life, love and loss. Thank you. Thank you for sharing all your stories. Thank you for listening to mine.
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