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Brilliant_Rock
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well with june almost over, the realization that i''m going to see M in just 32ish days has finally sunk in. or hit me like a bag of bricks, since sinking seems much calmer than what my mind is doing right now
regardless, after today i have wednesday and thursday off and then between the hospital and wally world, work every day up until i leave. and once the hospital kicks in, i''ll be going to the gym daily, so hopefully that keeps me busy.
so with a month left until the last time i see him before december most likely, and with us already starting pre-cana, the what if''s have landed and are going to have me twitching by the end of july.
i know it''s going to happen then, and with pre-cana and all the planning we''re getting out of the way before classes start up again for me, i really shouldn''t start this whole freaking out thing. but regardless of what i know, my mind is dead set on making me wonder.
i need to be slapped
a month is not a long time when there''s clothes and shoes to by, trying to exercise as much as possible, trying to keep my skin clear, even out/get some sort of tan on places other than my face and 3/4s of my arm, get a haircut, try to un-callus my feet, clean room and car, pack...
regardless, after today i have wednesday and thursday off and then between the hospital and wally world, work every day up until i leave. and once the hospital kicks in, i''ll be going to the gym daily, so hopefully that keeps me busy.
so with a month left until the last time i see him before december most likely, and with us already starting pre-cana, the what if''s have landed and are going to have me twitching by the end of july.
i know it''s going to happen then, and with pre-cana and all the planning we''re getting out of the way before classes start up again for me, i really shouldn''t start this whole freaking out thing. but regardless of what i know, my mind is dead set on making me wonder.
i need to be slapped
a month is not a long time when there''s clothes and shoes to by, trying to exercise as much as possible, trying to keep my skin clear, even out/get some sort of tan on places other than my face and 3/4s of my arm, get a haircut, try to un-callus my feet, clean room and car, pack...
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