Dreamgirl
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Just a few quick notes before I tell you why Im upset:
For those who don’t know, we have been together for 10 years but spent the first year LDR because we were young (17) and still both in high school. So we would send each other stuff in the mail and talk online, the phone and send emails to each other. Well, I printed out EVERY email he ever sent me when we were apart. I have a very thick thick book with emails it’s about 6 inches thick! And its AMAZING to look back at because they are like love letters. I even have it pulled out of the bookshelf on my floor that I was looking at a few weeks ago and even showed him some things in it. I kept pretty much EVERYTHING he ever sent me (including wrapping paper from my first Christmas gift from him.) So he kept stuff too including emails (which he has in a folder, not a book…) and other things as well.
Now to why Im upset and hurt:
So we were watching tv everything was going great and I took my rings off to put some lotion on. So he picks up the one ring and is looking at it and tells me he heard that women are having these parties where they are melting down their gold and getting money right on the spot. So I said “I wouldn’t do that because these rings mean a lot to me. Even though I wont be wearing them forever (after I get my engagement ring, I wont wear these other rings I wear now) they hold a lot of sentimental value to me.” So he smiles and then we even had a short discussion about the band on the engagement ring I like and how it’s unique looking. So we continue with our wonderful evening…
Then before he leaves to go home, he has this old “student planner” that I sent him when I was in high school (10 years ago.) I actually wrote stuff in almost every page. When you open the cover it says “the word LOVE has been written in this book 200 times!” In the back of the book I wrote a 2 page story about how we met and how lucky I am. I traced my hand and wrote that I couldn’t wait until we held hands (because we were LDR.) I mean, this book has a lot of value to it…right? Well, he ended up sending me his high school “student planner” with the same sort of stuff in it 10 years ago as well (which I still have.)
ANYWAY, I said “OOOO I remember this!!” and he has the nerve to tell me “Yeah, I was wondering if you wanted it or if I should just throw it out because I really don’t have room for it.” I couldn’t believe he said that!!!! It’s literally like a 4x6 little book!!!! And he has his OWN condo and I just have one room where I live. So I say “WHAT!? You don’t want to keep this book?”
Him “Not really. It’s just a planner. It’s old. If we keep everything we ever had, we wouldn’t have room for anything else” So Im hurt now and said “Fine, if it doesn’t mean anything to you, then it doesn’t mean anything to me! Did you even look at it? (he said yes) It has a lot of stuff I wrote in it, it has my hand drawn in there. You don’t want to keep this to look back at?” And I chucked it into the trash and walked up the stairs. He isn’t coming upstairs yet and I walk back down to see what he’s doing. He’s got the book and he’s looking at it and I said “What are you doing? Why are you looking at that? You told me you didn’t want it” and he says “Well, your just going to throw it away?” I say “Well, that’s what you want isn’t it?” So then he gets upset for some reason and sticks it in his bag to take home and I said “What are you doing? You said you didn’t want it, give it to me” and he says “Well what are you going to do throw it away?” and I said “Why do you care? Yes Im going to throw it away!”
So then he’s leaving and we are outside and I told him how this hurt me a lot (and Im starting to cry)
and I told him “I feel like this is how you think of me. Just something you can toss out. And did you choose to throw the old emails as well?” Him “No, I didn’t. I just don’t understand why you want to keep that thing.” I told him “Well, I have yours and it means a lot to me. I still have everything. Why would you ever want to get rid of something like this from our first year together. It’s something wonderful to look back on. It just doesn’t matter to you anymore” So he tells me that Im TOO SENTIMENTAL but go ahead and keep it then.
And then he left. So I brought the book to work today and I reading what I wrote in the back of the book and I don’t even know if he really looked in it again because there is NO WAY we could throw this thing out. But just the fact that he gave it to me and told me that and now I have it makes me think that he just doesn’t care!!!!!!!! And even after I told him about my rings and all that. And he knows I have that book of emails pulled out that I showed him a couple weeks ago……arrrrrg Im mad!
Thanks for listening to the vent. I had to tell someone about it. Im just really upset and hurt by this. ……
For those who don’t know, we have been together for 10 years but spent the first year LDR because we were young (17) and still both in high school. So we would send each other stuff in the mail and talk online, the phone and send emails to each other. Well, I printed out EVERY email he ever sent me when we were apart. I have a very thick thick book with emails it’s about 6 inches thick! And its AMAZING to look back at because they are like love letters. I even have it pulled out of the bookshelf on my floor that I was looking at a few weeks ago and even showed him some things in it. I kept pretty much EVERYTHING he ever sent me (including wrapping paper from my first Christmas gift from him.) So he kept stuff too including emails (which he has in a folder, not a book…) and other things as well.
Now to why Im upset and hurt:
So we were watching tv everything was going great and I took my rings off to put some lotion on. So he picks up the one ring and is looking at it and tells me he heard that women are having these parties where they are melting down their gold and getting money right on the spot. So I said “I wouldn’t do that because these rings mean a lot to me. Even though I wont be wearing them forever (after I get my engagement ring, I wont wear these other rings I wear now) they hold a lot of sentimental value to me.” So he smiles and then we even had a short discussion about the band on the engagement ring I like and how it’s unique looking. So we continue with our wonderful evening…
Then before he leaves to go home, he has this old “student planner” that I sent him when I was in high school (10 years ago.) I actually wrote stuff in almost every page. When you open the cover it says “the word LOVE has been written in this book 200 times!” In the back of the book I wrote a 2 page story about how we met and how lucky I am. I traced my hand and wrote that I couldn’t wait until we held hands (because we were LDR.) I mean, this book has a lot of value to it…right? Well, he ended up sending me his high school “student planner” with the same sort of stuff in it 10 years ago as well (which I still have.)
ANYWAY, I said “OOOO I remember this!!” and he has the nerve to tell me “Yeah, I was wondering if you wanted it or if I should just throw it out because I really don’t have room for it.” I couldn’t believe he said that!!!! It’s literally like a 4x6 little book!!!! And he has his OWN condo and I just have one room where I live. So I say “WHAT!? You don’t want to keep this book?”
So then he’s leaving and we are outside and I told him how this hurt me a lot (and Im starting to cry)
And then he left. So I brought the book to work today and I reading what I wrote in the back of the book and I don’t even know if he really looked in it again because there is NO WAY we could throw this thing out. But just the fact that he gave it to me and told me that and now I have it makes me think that he just doesn’t care!!!!!!!! And even after I told him about my rings and all that. And he knows I have that book of emails pulled out that I showed him a couple weeks ago……arrrrrg Im mad!
Thanks for listening to the vent. I had to tell someone about it. Im just really upset and hurt by this. ……
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