mia1181
Brilliant_Rock
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- Oct 25, 2006
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First, I wanted to say thanks to the posters who shared their experiences regarding weight gain and being abused. My mother was sexually abused throughout her childhood and then physically abused as an adult (during my childhood). She finally met my Stepdad, who has been very loving and supportive, but she has gained a lot of weight over the years. She is my height and frame but probably weighs at least a 100 lbs. more than me. I know that the things that have happened to her still affect her but she doesn''t talk about them much. Its been really hard because I live across the country from her and we aren''t as close as we used to be. Anyway, I guess some of what you guys are saying hit close to home.
If its okay I''d like to join too. I am at a "healthy" weight, however I really have been wanting to start to lead a more healthier lifestyle. Soon FI and I will be having children of our own and I would like to be healthy throughout my pregnancy, and be a positive role model for our children. I am a nanny and I have been a great role model for the children, but then I go home and eat a second dinner with my FI and then snack on junk all night. I used to exercise at least an hour or two a week, but now I work 55+ hours a week and I use the "too tired" excuse all too often.
So my goals for eating are: smaller portions and stopping when I am satisfied (not engorged!)
As far as the psych behind my eating issues, food has always been a reward in my family. So I eat when I am having a good day (to celebrate) and then I eat to cheer myself up when I am down. Also there is this other thing about how through some of my childhood, we were very poor and with 5 kids there was often not a lot of food to go around. So I have a bit of obsession with getting to eat whatever I want now that I can afford it. And going out to eat was the ultimate prize. So now we eat out a lot and if I have already eaten and my FI says "hey wanna go out to eat," I can never say no. And when we get there, I eat a whole meal again, not just an appetizer.
My exercise goals
are to start running again. And get back into Bikram yoga which I am in love with, but a wart incident has given me a great "excuse" not to go. I also need to use my Fluidity bar workout more since I promised FI I wasn''t wasting money on it!
I don''t have any weight-loss goals per se because my body is in the healthy range, but I would love to be able to get up a flight of stairs without getting winded. Oh and the hook at the top of my dress doesn''t close, so I would love to be able to not have to get it taken out.