Mara
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i had a mini solely-mental freak out when we got engaged....i had been wanting it but then once i got it, i was like holy crap!!! this is FOREVER. mentally stewed on it for a while, and talked it over with greg...who reassured me he had no doubts that i was just having a freak out rather than serious doubts, because he was such a fabulous catch...and then i realized he was right, he was fabulous and i had realized this a long time ago and come to the conclusion i wanted to marry him so why was i letting my brain get the best of me now. after that it was fine.
then i had an actual screaming freak out like 3 days before the wedding, on a friend of mine who was being so selfish about helping us move from the small house into the big house on kauai, he wanted to go to the beach as they had just gotten there, and i was asking for his help (along with the other friends) for 15 minutes and he was all snippy and sighy about it and asking why it couldn''t wait til later (umm because we needed to move all the stuff over so we could continue working on things?), so i screamed at him about being selfish for not wanting to give me 15 minutes of his precious time, when our wedding was most of the reason he was in hawaii to begin with.
he is actually a really self-absorbed guy in general so it was long-building from the years we have spent together as friends, and in retrospect it was really funny, and he could have cared less as because he is so self-absorbed it only bothered him for a minute, but all my other friends were shocked into silence, then most scrambled to get out of their chairs to help us move hahaha.
anyway other than that, the last semblance of any freak out was AT the altar when i realized halfway up that i had not looked at my vows all day or on any day in the last 2-3 weeks in fact and i could only remember snippets. so i burst out crying when the pastor looked at me and asked me to speak. greg was horrified, kept patting me and telling me it would be okay, so i think i mumbled out some disjointed version of ''you''re fabulous, lets get married'' and he said some beautiful, poetic thing that i still remember snippets of today...but he LOVES to tease me about how i broke out crying at the altar. that was even more freaky to him as i really never cry, maybe once a year? i am really not an emotional person and even if i get upset i rarely cry...and i am hardly ever sad or anything. so he was like WOAH what''s going on. on the ironic side, all the guests thought it was so cute i was so emotional about getting married. lol!
then i had an actual screaming freak out like 3 days before the wedding, on a friend of mine who was being so selfish about helping us move from the small house into the big house on kauai, he wanted to go to the beach as they had just gotten there, and i was asking for his help (along with the other friends) for 15 minutes and he was all snippy and sighy about it and asking why it couldn''t wait til later (umm because we needed to move all the stuff over so we could continue working on things?), so i screamed at him about being selfish for not wanting to give me 15 minutes of his precious time, when our wedding was most of the reason he was in hawaii to begin with.
anyway other than that, the last semblance of any freak out was AT the altar when i realized halfway up that i had not looked at my vows all day or on any day in the last 2-3 weeks in fact and i could only remember snippets. so i burst out crying when the pastor looked at me and asked me to speak. greg was horrified, kept patting me and telling me it would be okay, so i think i mumbled out some disjointed version of ''you''re fabulous, lets get married'' and he said some beautiful, poetic thing that i still remember snippets of today...but he LOVES to tease me about how i broke out crying at the altar. that was even more freaky to him as i really never cry, maybe once a year? i am really not an emotional person and even if i get upset i rarely cry...and i am hardly ever sad or anything. so he was like WOAH what''s going on. on the ironic side, all the guests thought it was so cute i was so emotional about getting married. lol!
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