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Yup, I wear a size 34" pants and I would like to trim a few inches off, but I know is not going to happen so may as well enjoy my favorite junk foods...Chrono|1399384926|3667210 said:I used to care about how I look to others but not anymore, therefore I am no longer concerned with whether I am satisfied nor dissatisfied with my appearance. Life is too short to worry about this.
Jimmianne|1399377704|3667127 said:junebug17|1399348032|3666987 said:I'm not too thrilled with any aspect of my appearance these days - I've changed a lot over the years (I'm almost 54) and feel I have lost a lot of my attractiveness. I avoid mirrors and hate having my picture taken. I look at pics of myself in my 20's and can't believe it's me. I was pretty depressed about losing my looks for a long time but am coming to terms with it and trying not to dwell on it. I try to focus on the good things in my life such as my husband and kids, and the fact that we're all healthy. Being healthy counts for a lot these days. I've also been trying to eat better and exercise more, to at least feel a little better physically and hopefully shed a few pounds so I'm more comfortable with myself. I might look into sprucing up my teeth too, which have somehow managed to become crooked and weird over the years. I used to have beautiful teeth *sigh*
junebug, I know you are more beautiful than you imagine. I'm 66 and you are young to me!
I take heart in the fact that I sometimes see older women who are covered in wrinkles and are so beautiful that I envy them. As we age, the inner beauty comes out more and more. courage!!
I think there is a time of life when we see things start to go, but then eventually accept it for the most part. Sounds like you are at the hard part right now. It gets better.
yeh - my teeth are doing the weird thing too. Who knew THAT would happen? but you can get braces : ) I've thought about it.
I cannot not bring myself to post hand shots. You all have such smooth & beautfiul hands. I always try to crop my photos so only the rings show.
I'm going to find & post a hand shot I dread showing right now as therapy!
lknvrb4|1399384727|3667204 said:LLJsmom|1399350488|3667013 said:Lil Misfit, I read your post in the other thread. I wanted to tell you that I admire your courage and strength. I don't remember all the details, but it was heart-wrenching and I respect your honesty.
Yeah, there are things I don't like about my appearance. Most people run to lose weight. I've run six marathons and I've gained weight. How does that work? Actually, it's because I eat a lot. I actually didn't realize that I ate a lot until I started going on marathon trips with my running friends, and I would eat twice what they eat. When I am training, I feel out of control of my appetite. If I don't eat at certain times, I get dizzy, a headache, cold, chills, nauseous, like I have the flu. I really hate feeling that way. I will eat all day long. Salty, sweet, back and forth. My body retains water because I need to burn the glycogen I'm storing to run the long distances. I've put on some pounds so my clothes don't fit. I love wearing skinny jeans but now they look like sausage casings because I refuse to buy larger sizes. I need to take some time off from long distance running, to let my body recover and realize that I am not going to put it through the pounding that I have been for the past 4 years now. (very hard to do because running is an addiction) Truthfully when people see me they think I'm tiny. That's because I am 5'2, and have skinny arms. They don't see the rest, and just assume everything else is that small too. (After dinner, my mom asks me if I'm pregnant.)
Running outdoors has caused sun damage on my face. My teeth are getting yellow. I'm a big coffee and tea drinker, but it never got stained so badly so quickly. Hate it. I'm getting wrinkles, and 50% of my hair is gray. It's hereditary, but when I don't color my hair, I look like a freak. And on top of that, I've lost almost 40% of my hair since having kids. My eye sight is going so quickly. I'm only 42, but I am wearing multifocals already. It's frustrating trying to find the right distance to place my reading so I can see it. Sorry, you asked about appearance only, right? Ok, I'll stop here. It's depressing me.
{{{hugs}}} to you all... Guess we all struggle with ourselves and our self-image.
I am a lot like you with my weight. I have gained about 10 lbs in the last year and a half. I know it does not seem like a lot but it is to me. The smaller you are the faster you will be. I am training six days a week, swimming, biking, and running. You would think I would be tiny. I eat around 1600-1800 calories a day. I have read I order to lose weight I need a calorie deficit but with training I need to eat or I am tanked. I am carrying my weight in my hips and stomach and its ridiculous. I will be getting a tummy tuck at some point and I can't wait. Having three kids really did a number on my stomach and left skin that is not to be desired.
I do have some issues with breakouts but always have but I really dont have very many wrinkles compared to other woman my age. Im fairly happy with the rest of me though.
momhappy|1399404647|3667380 said:I also forgot to mention that I don't mind putting effort into my appearance - in fact, I like it (most of it anyways). I think that caring about what others think of you is normal. If I didn't care what others thought of me, then I probably wouldn't care to put effort into my appearance. I like dressing nice, putting on make-up, staying in shape, maintaining my long hair, etc. - I do it because it makes myself feel & look better and also because it affects the way that I am perceived by others. I care about the fact that others think that I put effort into my appearance and I don't think that there's necessarily anything wrong with that (as long as it's not extreme in any way). I don't ever want to be perceived as "letting myself go" because that's just not the type of person that I am.
momhappy|1399416982|3667502 said:^My kids point and laugh at my bottom too. They refer to it as "jiggly" and although I'd normally find that sort of commentary upsetting, to them, it is jiggly (when compared to theirs). We are definitely not prudes around the house (when it comes to nudity). My kids see me get out of bed, out of the shower, etc. naked (or darn close to it) all the time. I want them to feel comfortable about that sort of thing, but I suppose there will come an age when it's no longer appropriate to be naked in front of them (especially, father in front of daughter or mother in front of son). I'm sure that they will be grossed out soon enough and then I will know for sure that my "little kid" days are over...
CJ2008|1399401882|3667361 said:I wish I had Chrono's attitude but I don't. I'm at the other extreme.
Except for maybe in my very late teens/early 20s where for the most part I remember just "being" and not thinking about or comparing myself to other girls I feel like after that I am always thinking about what people think of my looks, is anyone noticing me, how do I look versus this one, and often find myself comparing in some way shape or form. Sometimes I feel, for example, that EVERYONE around me has good legs except for me. Or good skin. And how so many people are better looking than me. You get the picture.
And now that I'm older it has gotten worse because I feel like even with makeup on and dressed well nobody notices me any more. Thinking this way definitely doesn't make me more attractive, but I'm sure less. The older I get the less I want to overthink but it's such a habit for me I don't know how to stop. I'm afraid of stopping. If I stopped, who would I become?
I'm starting to feel very threatened by younger women too. Like I can't hold my own. It's so sad. And I've got to stop, plain and simple.
I do definitely need to get back in the gym, I've been slacking for the last couple of months and that is ALWAYS a spiral into nothing good for me. The gym is a necessity for me because it makes me feel better even if I don't look that much better. And one thing I know, even though I've only mastered it on the surface, is that feeling better and feeling more confident is so much more important than anything else...if only I could figure out how to feel comfortable in my own skin that would be awesome. But I don't expect that to happen if it has not happened yet - I feel like it's like self-confidence...you either have it or you don't...it's innate.
ETA: jimmianne I think your hands are pretty...your skin tone is nice and even...that's what I notice...not the wrinkles...I like your hands.
Lil Misfit|1399419101|3667523 said:CJ2008|1399401882|3667361 said:I wish I had Chrono's attitude but I don't. I'm at the other extreme.
Except for maybe in my very late teens/early 20s where for the most part I remember just "being" and not thinking about or comparing myself to other girls I feel like after that I am always thinking about what people think of my looks, is anyone noticing me, how do I look versus this one, and often find myself comparing in some way shape or form. Sometimes I feel, for example, that EVERYONE around me has good legs except for me. Or good skin. And how so many people are better looking than me. You get the picture.
And now that I'm older it has gotten worse because I feel like even with makeup on and dressed well nobody notices me any more. Thinking this way definitely doesn't make me more attractive, but I'm sure less. The older I get the less I want to overthink but it's such a habit for me I don't know how to stop. I'm afraid of stopping. If I stopped, who would I become?
I'm starting to feel very threatened by younger women too. Like I can't hold my own. It's so sad. And I've got to stop, plain and simple.
I do definitely need to get back in the gym, I've been slacking for the last couple of months and that is ALWAYS a spiral into nothing good for me. The gym is a necessity for me because it makes me feel better even if I don't look that much better. And one thing I know, even though I've only mastered it on the surface, is that feeling better and feeling more confident is so much more important than anything else...if only I could figure out how to feel comfortable in my own skin that would be awesome. But I don't expect that to happen if it has not happened yet - I feel like it's like self-confidence...you either have it or you don't...it's innate.
ETA: jimmianne I think your hands are pretty...your skin tone is nice and even...that's what I notice...not the wrinkles...I like your hands.
First of all, thank you to everyone for your honesty! I was worried when I posted this last night and it had a high view count but no posts that maybe I'd ventured into something that I shouldn't have. So, thank you all for posting your stories.
CJ2008 - I could have written your post. It resonates so much with me. I used to compare myself to EVERY woman I saw. Literally. I don't do that near as much since I had my "epiphany", but I will admit that it does sometimes still happen. I was thinking about this yesterday...I'm wondering if, subconsciously, the reason I've gotten so heavily tattooed is so that people's eyes will be drawn to my ink instead of say my thighs, my face, my butt, etc....It would certainly make sense, but honestly, it wasn't something I did consciously. Funny how that works, huh?
My newest obsession (I didn't say I was cured! LOL) is the sagging skin on the front of my thighs. I originally thought it was cellulite, but then I realized that it's just gravity taking over and that I better get my butt back to the gym and do some toning up if I don't wanna look like a cheesecake in shorts this summer! Ah, the joys of getting older.
Thanks again for all of your posts, and I hope you all keep posting. And know that I think you are ALL beautiful, inside and out!
momhappy|1399423450|3667565 said:I have always found that going to the gym is not only good for the obvious (my physical well-being), but almost more so for my mental well-being. The way I perceive myself is so much different when I'm regularly going to the gym than when I'm not. Lately, I've been battling an achilles tendon injury, which has meant that I can't work out as much. The negative thoughts have already started creeping back in. I'm just in a much happier place when I'm working out and knowing that I'm doing everything I can to combat my age.