"Just Barely" Pregnant PS''ers

[swimmer]

Bliss, I am so sorry. There are no words really. Love to you and your family.

 

[dani13]

Oh Bliss, Im so very sorry. Thinking of you and your family during this very difficult time. *Hugs*

 

[curlygirl]

Bliss, I am so, so sorry for your loss. I can''t even imagine how tough this must be for you but I think you have an amazing outlook on everything and a great support system that will help you get through this. Take time to grieve, take care of yourself and know that you can always come here for comfort and strength. You''ll be in my thoughts.

 

[Skippy123]

Bliss, you are such an amazing and graceful lady; I know all of us adore you. Your post brought tears to my eyes and the little bean is so loved. I am so sorry for your loss and sending lots of prayers and love your way at this times. God bless you and your dear hubby and take care dear friend.

 

[Sha]

I'm really sorry to hear this recent news too, Bliss.....

TTC can be such an emotional rollercoaster sometimes.

Don't give up hope just yet - there's still next week's ultrasound to go. I say that because my best friend had the same issue when she got pregnant - the baby was measuring behind and his heart rate was slow. Her doc said she was having a threatened miscarriage and put her on bed rest for a week. Things improved after that. She's now 20 + weeks! So there's still hope that this can turn around. I hope so! Keep us updated.

 

[mtjoya]

Bliss,

I am so sorry for your loss. I am praying for you and your family.

 

[Bliss]

Oh my gosh, you ladies have been so wonderful and supportive. You have given me so much hope, not just for this situation but for the rest of my life. I am at a loss for words.

I thank you from the bottom of my heart. Thank you. When I first joined PS, I didn't understand the mechanics behind dust and concepts of well wishes over an online forum. But now I see how powerful the support can be and I am so humbled by the opening of your hearts and sending us thoughts and prayers. I'll never doubt again!

It has truly been a comfort to me. Sometimes I've felt so alone despite DH, family and friends being so wonderful - because things are so touch and go and it's in my body. It really has been a huge blessing, even though it is a very painful one. The hardest part is trying to find a balance between acceptance and hope. The mind will not listen and continues to try to find reasons to hope for the best. It's like my body is trying to let a splinter work its way out of my skin and the mind pushes it back in with its bony finger. You know? It's been rough. I cry a lot. Sometimes, I feel like I change my mind and then I beg the bean to stay. But I know I shouldn't; I try to be strong so I ask God to take its little hand for me. Because I just don't think I can give him up on my own.

You ladies are amazing. I go in for another ultrasound on Monday or Tuesday. I'm trying to push it to Monday so that we will know sooner rather than later. I wonder if one day will make a difference? They wanted to wait exactly a week. Then on Wednesday, the doctor called to say that my progesterone levels are very high so while it's a reassuring sign, we won't know until the fourth ultrasound. Wow, it's been really incredible. Even if there is some great miracle, I can't help but feel like the joy has been robbed from this pregnancy. I have mourned the loss of this baby twice and every moment since those predictions. And I'll be so terrified I don't feel like I'll ever enjoy the remaining months. But then again, I know it's my fear and should a miracle happen, the joy will peek out from behind the clouds once more. I know God has a plan for us, so I just need to keep the faith.

***LOVE***

In the meantime...

Please go back to bemoaning preggo symptoms and sharing tips! It helps me to feel normal again and I want this thread to be a very happy one for our new mommies to be!!!! It makes me feel that old familiar excitement and I want to celebrate your journeys. I know you guys will always be thinking of me, so please go back to regular programming! We have a lot to celebrate, still!!!!

I am rooting for all of your little beans!!!! A healthy, happy 9 months and perfect deliveries for you all.

 

[Bia]

Bliss, I got here sort of late, but I wanted to say how sorry I am that this is happening. I am praying for the best possible outcome for you and your beautiful baby...

If only all mothers could more like you. Lots and lots of *dust* and (((hugs)))

 

[Mara]

Bliss, you never know, keep the hope alive. It is VERY hard to get through the first trimester, I am not very emotional in general but I was mentally a wreck even if I didn''t share that with many people and just kept going day after day. I didn''t ''relax'' til around week 20 even though there was no conceivable reason WHY. I guess just having everything be totally out of your control is really frightening. Keep a positive mental attitude if you can, I know it is hard.

Hope all the other newly preggos are doing well...please chime in with some updates!!

 

[Dreamer_D]

Date: 11/20/2009 1:21:08 PM
Author: Mara
Bliss, you never know, keep the hope alive. It is VERY hard to get through the first trimester, I am not very emotional in general but I was mentally a wreck even if I didn''t share that with many people and just kept going day after day. I didn''t ''relax'' til around week 20 even though there was no conceivable reason WHY. I guess just having everything be totally out of your control is really frightening. Keep a positive mental attitude if you can, I know it is hard.

Hope all the other newly preggos are doing well...please chime in with some updates!!

Ditto to all of this.

 

[KimberlyH]

Bliss, waiting and being unsure what is going to happen is so hard (as I''ve said before I''ve been there). My hope for you is, of course, that everything will be okay, but know that if this pregnancy doesn''t turn out as you, your husband and everyone else want it to you will move forward with a new perspective and a different sort of joy and hopefulness.

 

[HOUMedGal]

Oh Bliss, I am so sad to hear this news.

I hope so much that this is a false alarm....my heart is aching for you right now in your time of sadness and uncertainty. Gosh, I wish that next ultrasound would hurry up and get here for you...I know the waiting must be soooooo hard!! I will send all the healthy bean vibes I can your way...and if things don''t work out this time, know that we will all be here to give you the support you need. Big, big hugs. Please keep us updated....we''ll all be thinking of you and sending lots of dust your way!

In honor of your special request, I''ll give an update. I''m doing well, just hit the 6 week mark! It''s funny, seems like the day I hit 6 weeks, all of a sudden, I started feeling it. I wanted more symptoms to feel more "sure" that this is for real, and boy did I get them. LOL! I''m EXHAUSTED, and though I haven''t actually tossed my cookies yet, I''ve definitely got some nausea off and on. The other night I was making spaghetti, and I went to dish it up, and the hot noodles were steaming on my face, and I was about to put the sauce onto the noodles when I was suddenly totally repulsed by the whole thing and had to leave the kitchen!! I ended up choking down a few bites of it, knowing that if I went to bed hungry I''d probably really regret it later, but it was such a chore to eat it!! I did have a bowl of french silk ice cream afterward, which went down much better. Also peeing like a race horse...I think I''ve been getting up 3-4 times a night lately. Fun stuff!!

Still anxiously awaiting my doctor''s appointment...a little over a week from now (on 11/30)! I haven''t had any signs that should make me worry (cramping, spotting, etc) but I will just feel so much better once I''ve got blood levels and an ultrasound, yanno? We told our parents a few days ago....they were all absolutely ecstatic!! My dad send me a text today saying "just thinking about you and the peanut and hope you''re doing well!!" Hehe. Too cute.

Oh, and a big congrats and welcome to SomethingShiny!!

Sooo happy for you!!!

 

[lili]

Bliss--
Your progesterone level being high is a reassuring sign.
Did your doctor measure your hcg level as well?
I''m keeping my fingers crossed that your gestational date is off and you are not as far along as you thought.
Lots of dust to you and your little bean.
*hugs*

 

[miraclesrule]

(((((((((((((((((((((Bliss)))))))))))))))))))))) Oh sweetie. I share your tears and sadness. I know how much love you have to give and how much you loved your little bean. You said it best, as you also do, that you will look back lovingly on this little bean if it wasn''t meant to be at this time.

Nature has a way of blessing over and over again. And I know...that it will be just a matter of time before you experience the joy of a miracle meant just for you. Never underestimate the power of a miracle.

 

[ChargerGrrl]

Bliss, I''ve been thinking about you all weekend.
I''m hoping and wishing that all turns out to be OK...

 

[Skippy123]

Date: 11/22/2009 6:22:48 PM
Author: ChargerGrrl
Bliss, I''ve been thinking about you all weekend.
I''m hoping and wishing that all turns out to be OK...

Ditto, I too have had you in my prayers and thoughts this weekend and hoping all will be okay. huge hugs and prayers continued.

 

[luvinlife]

Bliss,
You were so kind write me such sweet note. I wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you.

 

[Smurfysmiles]

I''m thinking of you too bliss, sending you lots and lots of ps bean dust Hope to hear some good news soon *hug*

 

[Lilac]

Just saw this... Bliss - I just want to say my thoughts are with you and I hope you''re doing OK. I can''t imagine the pain you must be going through and especially the emotional back-and-forth of not knowing what''s really happening. I hope you and your husband know we are all thinking of you. *hugs*

To all the other ladies that are "just barely pregnant" - congratulations and I hope you have a wonderful, healthy, happy 9 months!

 

[NewShiny]

bliss, thinking of you.

I''m still here. Only 8 weeks and sick of being sick. DH had to clean out the fridge because I said it reeked. Of course he couldn''t smell a thing but he cleaned it out anyway. He also understands that there can''t be a single dirty dish in the sink or I can''t be in the kitchen. I keep telling him I''m sorry I''m so sensitive, but I can''t help it. Luckily he''s very understanding. Good thing I''m not cooking tgiving dinner this year.

We told DH''s family yesterday. MIL is going to be grandma 3 times in 2010! Both of my SILs are preggo too. One due in feb, another in may, and me in july!

 

[jcrow]

Date: 11/23/2009 10:28:06 PM
Author: NewShiny
bliss, thinking of you.


I''m still here. Only 8 weeks and sick of being sick. DH had to clean out the fridge because I said it reeked. Of course he couldn''t smell a thing but he cleaned it out anyway. He also understands that there can''t be a single dirty dish in the sink or I can''t be in the kitchen. I keep telling him I''m sorry I''m so sensitive, but I can''t help it. Luckily he''s very understanding. Good thing I''m not cooking tgiving dinner this year.

We told DH''s family yesterday. MIL is going to be grandma 3 times in 2010! Both of my SILs are preggo too. One due in feb, another in may, and me in july!

this was EXACTLY how i was at the beginning! i couldn''t do dishes. i couldn''t do the trash. he had to clean out the fridge, even though barely anything was in there. i couldn''t do any cooking. blah. thank goodness it goes away!

 

[swimmer]

Bliss, stalking this thread for news of you. Hope you are doing well.

NS, good luck with the sensitive sniffer, you could work in security now! Like those beagles at customs sniffing out contraband fruit. They are too cute. Can you just picture preggo women taking over the job?

 

[Mara]

Bliss...hope you will check in soon and let us know how things are going...wishing the best.

NewShiny...yep I thought our fridge stank to high heaven too. My husband was like ''it smells fine''... but I was sure there was something rancid in there. I have another friend who was the same way, actually couldn''t even open it for almost 5 months!! They ate a lot of take out for that time.

Even though a lot of things don''t smell as badly anymore, I still definitely notice my nose is not ''the same''... I notice more perfumy or tropical scents than I used to, aka my coworkers hair products and while they don''t make me nauseated anymore, I still don''t like the scent and it brings up bad memories. hahaa. So I am hoping after pregnancy that goes away. Right now I can only use one of my hair products..boo.

 

[ChargerGrrl]

I’ve been eagerly following this thread, and cheering on all the newly preggo ladies!

It’s Thanksgiving week, and I’m blessed and excited to share the news that I too am newly preggo- just shy of 10 weeks. I’m due June 24th. I first found out at 4 weeks and it’s taken all my willpower not to scream it from the rooftops, but DH and I agreed not to go that route until we were further along.

I had my first ultrasound at 6 weeks (Halloween eve), and we saw the blink of a heartbeat- that was sooooo exciting! I went in early last week for my 2nd visit and that ultrasound showed that everything is progressing nicely. I next see my doc on 12/8, the day after I see a specialist for the NT screening. I’ll then move over to an OB, as my doc is strictly a GYN/fertility specialist.

All in all, I’ve had a pretty uneventful pregnancy. No morning sickness, but lots of indigestion (I’m belching like a champ!), and a super-heightened sense of smell. I totally feel drained and tired too, but that’s par for the course. Tests from my 1st appt found strep in my bladder, and I was prescribed antibiotics. I ended up having an allergic reaction to them after 5 days and broke out in hives and a rash, which I couldn’t do anything to treat. That wasn’t fun, and my skin hasn’t fully recovered. I haven’t heard if the dose I was able to take wiped the strep, but do know that I’ll have to take antibiotics at the onset of labor just in case. Has anyone else had to deal with this?

I’m doing my best to watch my weight, as I’m prone to gaining. I lost 25 lbs this past year, so I’m very determined to keep things in check! I’m been able to continue with my morning BootCamp sessions (just not every day), but I’ve been taking things down a notch. My BC trainer knows I’m preggo and has been keeping an eye on me. Although it’s tough to get up in the morning (I want to sleep!) I feel so much better when I am able to be active. I went on a nice 3 mile hike this morning with some of the BC gals, and I’m glad I did!

We told my parents this past Sunday, during our early family Thanksgiving dinner and they were thrilled. We’re travelling to the East coast tonite to spend the holiday with DH’s family and will share the news with them. DH’s Nana will be there, and this will be her 1st great-grandchild. I can’t wait to see her reaction!

Sometimes I can’t believe I’m pregnant! It took me awhile to get here (1st want to get preggo, and then TTC), and I plan to enjoy and cherish every moment of my pregnancy. Baby B- we call it “Bebe”, will truly be a gift.

WOW, I’ve written a novel- probably my longest post ever! The PS mamas are such a wealth of info- I’m so glad I have this valuable resource to tap into.

 

[Shoopy]

Congratulations Charger

 

[lili]

Congrats ChargerGrl

 

[meresal]

Congratulations CG!!!

 

[lovelylulu]

Congratulations charger!!

we''re due right around the same time - my dd is June 21st

exciting.

 

[swimmer]

Whoa, wait a minute here, Lulu, you are having a girl? Fantastic! I know you are thinking of awesome names...can you share?

I can't wait to find out, our halfway scan is Dec 1st, simply dying to find out.

Woo Hoo Charger!

 

[jcrow]

charger - yay!!! congrats to you and mr charger!