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Hi girls, yaaay I finally write something here!
So, as some of you know I have had some serious bumps down the road lately and lots of work at home too working on my private life and looking at different directions and options but for weeks it was very tough trying to solve a serious situation and some of you also know I got somewhat involved with my ex fiancee and that was an additional emotion turmoil realizing he is not a person I can like despite my past history with him. He has no ethics and I do not share that. I should have known that but because there was no closure I had to do this even if it is like pulling a bad tooth out, for three days it was like walking through hell on top of everything else but I am trying to think positively about which directions I want to head in and maybe leave men out for a short time at least, then I always feel my head is clearer until I am ready to and person meet a nice person. I will not say many things here about what has been happening but many of you already know.
Yes I missed you all a lot, this thread and those that I do not talk to privately. I still read PS when I have time at work but there I do not sign in, only read general threads so I cannot write.
I will try to read back as far as I can this weekend.
This morning I got terribly sick, I think that not being able to sleep and all the stress finally took a toll on me. It started with throatache two days ago and ended up in horrid stomach virus and of course on a day when I had to go to work as I was going to be alone. That was not easy. I had my driver come and bring me lots of medicine and then wait to catch my carpool but we still had to stop a few times. Miraculously I did not pass out at work.) I have to promise myself to take it easy and try to sleep, even if in the afternoon as my body must somehow relearn how to relax, rest and get its energy back and have to do things for my soul too perhaps by talking to you my friends and reading PS, etc.
I need new ideas on how to divert my attention, I did listen to music for a while but it became hard too, too emotional, I am looking for ways of getting my brain shut off and helping my heart heal. It all takes time I know.
I have to say I love your earrings Missy, was I so bad that I missed your birthday? They look beautiful on you and you are gorgeous as always.
Tomorrow will write everyone more.
Hugs to all of you my NIRDI Girlfriends!
So, as some of you know I have had some serious bumps down the road lately and lots of work at home too working on my private life and looking at different directions and options but for weeks it was very tough trying to solve a serious situation and some of you also know I got somewhat involved with my ex fiancee and that was an additional emotion turmoil realizing he is not a person I can like despite my past history with him. He has no ethics and I do not share that. I should have known that but because there was no closure I had to do this even if it is like pulling a bad tooth out, for three days it was like walking through hell on top of everything else but I am trying to think positively about which directions I want to head in and maybe leave men out for a short time at least, then I always feel my head is clearer until I am ready to and person meet a nice person. I will not say many things here about what has been happening but many of you already know.
Yes I missed you all a lot, this thread and those that I do not talk to privately. I still read PS when I have time at work but there I do not sign in, only read general threads so I cannot write.
I will try to read back as far as I can this weekend.
This morning I got terribly sick, I think that not being able to sleep and all the stress finally took a toll on me. It started with throatache two days ago and ended up in horrid stomach virus and of course on a day when I had to go to work as I was going to be alone. That was not easy. I had my driver come and bring me lots of medicine and then wait to catch my carpool but we still had to stop a few times. Miraculously I did not pass out at work.) I have to promise myself to take it easy and try to sleep, even if in the afternoon as my body must somehow relearn how to relax, rest and get its energy back and have to do things for my soul too perhaps by talking to you my friends and reading PS, etc.
I need new ideas on how to divert my attention, I did listen to music for a while but it became hard too, too emotional, I am looking for ways of getting my brain shut off and helping my heart heal. It all takes time I know.
I have to say I love your earrings Missy, was I so bad that I missed your birthday? They look beautiful on you and you are gorgeous as always.
Tomorrow will write everyone more.
Hugs to all of you my NIRDI Girlfriends!