Please say a prayer...

[Skippy123]

Oh my gosh Harleigh, I looked it up because I wasn't quite sure what a clavicle was. Sending my strongest prayers for you. How did it happen (don't answer if you don't want to)? I am very very sorry our sweet Haleigh.

Sending lots of prayers for your shoulder and beloved kitty and sweet you.

ETA: I hope you don't mind me bumping this thread; so many people adore you.

 

[Harleigh]

Thank you again, everyone. The past week has had its ups and downs, and you all have helped me to get through the difficult times. I did receive the memorial stone I ordered for Maverick on Saturday, but as I mentioned in Skippy''s other thread, I fractured my clavicle on Saturday night and have been in a huge amount of pain ever since. I had taken the stone over to Rusty''s to put out where Maverick is buried, but it was really dark and windy by the time I got there, so I thought I would wait until the next morning...sadly, that didn''t quite happen the way I had planned.

For some background, one of my close friends is going through a horrible break-up, so I told her I would go out dancing with her (I don''t know if any of you remember, but I dance competitively in country/western two-step/swing/west coast swing, etc...) I was the voluntary DD as I figured my friend needed a drink more than me as it would just make me more sad, and I don''t have to drink to have a good time, so I didn''t mind going or driving, and figured we could both use a night out for some distraction.

Needless to say, I was out dancing, all by myself, mind you, and started not feeling very well. It WAS a very high energy line dance that I hadn''t done in almost 10 years, so I was giving it my all. Suddenly my chest started to hurt so badly that I honestly thought I was starting to have a heart attack. At only age 35, I wasn''t TOO concerned, but if the flaming, burning sensation in my chest was anything like a heart attack, please take me off the list for ever having one. I cannot imagine a worse feeling. I slowed down (felt like I''d just run a marathon and was at least age 70) and tried to relax a bit, but didn''t stop dancing. I stupidly started to go into a 4-turn spin and all of a sudden I heard a loud "pop" near my left shoulder and nearly passed out.

Long story short, one of my ribs dislocated near my clavicle and fractured it while hitting a muscle in my chest. Sadly, there is absolutely nothing the doctor''s can do for me, so here I sit in pain. The pressure on my chest is unbelievable, and it hurts everytime I breathe in, out, sneeze, hiccup, you name it, I can''t take a full breath. So, I struggled to make it through the past two days at work, but since I can''t sleep (now for a different reason than Maverick passing away, but it leaves me awake with lots of time to think about it) I am taking tomorrow off from work. I feel completely useless and am frustrated at having to stay home and not being able to do anything while here, so I am trying to catch up with all of you here on PS while staying as immobile as humanly possible.

On Sunday, I couldn''t even get out of bed and had to wait for Rusty to come home from work to help me up and out. For some reason I felt the need to try to place Maverick''s stone outside on his grave all by myself that morning, but it was freezing cold and windy, and shivering makes my neck and shoulder hurt worse, so I hurried and put it out there as best I could and headed back into the house without saying much...I was just in too much pain, but I feel bad that I didn''t say anything profound.

Rusty has been very frustrated with work lately and not feeling his best, either, so he hadn''t been out to see the stone yet...he sent me a text message today telling me the memorial looked nice and when did I do that? I think his feelings were hurt that I didn''t have him help me put it out, but I honestly didn''t think I could handle the physical pain of crying right then due to my shoulder pain, and the poor man has listened to me cry more in the past two weeks than I think he has in the entire 15 years of knowing me, and he''d had such a rough 48 hours of work, I just didn''t want to add to it. We talked about it tonight and of course I started to cry again...I think in part for losing Maverick, for being in pain, and for just plain being miserable these past few weeks with so much going wrong. Crying hurts immensely, so I am trying not to at all costs, but I wanted to take the time now to let you all know how much your thoughtfulness and kindness means to me each and every time I read what you all have written.

Even though I have shied away from posting here on PS lately, whenever I think about Maverick, I have come back here and read all of your lovely posts and remind myself that this grief I am feeling is normal. I can''t believe what a wonderful support system you have been for me these past two weeks, and I thank you all from the bottom of my heart for caring about me and how I am feeling. It means more to me than I know how to put into words on here.

Much love and hugs,

 

[Harleigh]

Date: 12/12/2007 12:26:28 AM
Author: Skippy123
Oh my gosh Harleigh, I looked it up because I wasn''t quite sure what a clavicle was. Sending my strongest prayers for you. How did it happen (don''t answer if you don''t want to)? I am very very sorry our sweet Haleigh.

Sending lots of prayers for your shoulder and beloved kitty and sweet you.

ETA: I hope you don''t mind me bumping this thread; so many people adore you.

Thank you, dear Skippy, for always being so thoughtful I adore you, too.

 

[AGBF]

Harleigh,

I am so sorry. I didn''t know that this could even happen spontaneously. Please don''t shy away from Pricescope. I didn''t see (still haven''t seen) Skippy''s other thread, so I am glad you posted your bad news here, too. I hope you heal quickly. I wish I knew how to do that thing that makes it look as if one were actually sending you hugs, because I do send them to you!

Hugs,
Deb

 

[gwendolyn]

Oh Harleigh, I am so sorry for your loss, and to hear of your injury. I hope you heal soon, and that you will soon be able to smile more often than cry when you think of your beautiful Maverick.

 

[AmberGretchen]

Oh Harleigh, you definitely didn''t need more pain. Your injury sounds just dreadful. Can any of your friends bring over favorite movies to watch or good books or magazines for you to read? Escaping into a good book can be really therapeutic, both for the pain and for not sleeping.

Have you considered trying one of the new, more mild, sleeping pills, something like Ambien or Lunesta or Rozerem? I only ask because I have trouble tolerating a lot of drugs but I also have chronic insomnia and those are much easier to tolerate and don''t leave you useless during the day. Resting is so important to healing for you right now it would be great if you could get some sleep.

Also, since Western Medicine hasn''t proved to be much help, have you considered trying alternative medicine? As a scientist, believe me, I''m not into taking weird herbs or anything like that, but acupuncture, as an example, does have some pretty solid evidence behind it and you might consider it to help you get through this difficult time.

I''ll keep sending you healing thoughts, and hope that the pain improves as soon as possible. Don''t forget to get good nutrition during this time to help your healing as well - as much fruits and veggies as you can stand for the nutrients, and extra protein to help your body heal itself. I know some of these things sound strange - sleeping pills, acupuncture, nutrition, but I think that your body is really suffering from the incredible grief you''ve been dealing with, and it needs all the help it can get to heal so that you can process the emotional grief you are dealing with without being overwhelmed with the physical pain.

 

[scarleta]

So sorry to hear about your clavicle Harleigh.Poor you must be in so much pain both physical and emotional.I know you want to make it easier on everyone around ( same here) , but its the process we must go through.Its different for each one of us so we must do what feels right.
As for your clavicle don''t shy away from analgesics because they can help you a bit now.If you don''t have anything from your doctor you can just take anything over the counter.It will take some time to heal and it will be painful so you should take something from time to time to ease your pain.Will keep you in my thoughts...

 

[Skippy123]

Harleigh,
I wish I lived nearby so I could take over something to eat; I hope you are being taken care of. I am so sorry, you are such a good and caring friend; that is awful that happened to you. You are in my thoughts for a speedy recovery!!! I wish I could help, but thinking of your sweetie.

 

[door knob solitaire]

Harleigh...I don't have adequate words to help you...just shame that I haven't checked on you. I have noticed you haven't posted...and thought you were away. Now knowing you were reading and not posting makes me feel terrible that you thought we all forgot you. And now you are carrying the world on your itty bitty shoulders that aren't pulling their weight. I can't imagine the pain. Emotionally I can but physically not.

My dentist (my all purpose medical consultant) had me try naproxin read here or what ever that brand name stuff was when I had a bulged disk. It really worked. Above all things prescribed and tried...it got the deep pain that I had then.

I want you to start a jotting down what you are taking and when you are taking it. It is imperative that you do this. You are under so much stress that the time may be forgotten and you can overdose very quickly. One hour can seem like five when you have that much pain. PROMISE me you will! PLEASE!! YOu take nothing more until you consult your pill journal. Nothing before it is safe to do so.

That empty emotional pain is all I know how to support you with...I know it is gut wrenching. And I know if one more person tells you time will help you are going to loose it. It is only the now...the present that you can deal with. And the minute by minute is rushing through your thoughts and your memory tv screen and it is off the charts painful. I know. I know. I know. Just come back and read or post or scream...because we all care for you and so wish we could remove the emptiness you feel.

Love ya!! Twinkie.

 

[diamondseeker2006]

Oh, Harleigh! I am so very sorry to hear about your injury! I hope you can somehow get some relief soon. Hugs (virtual..I don''t want to hurt you!) and prayers coming your way!