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I have to put my cat to sleep today and it’s breaking my heart. She’s my baby. My Zoey bird.
We’ve been fighting mammory cancer for about a year now but it‘s been spreading. If you don’t know anything about mammary cancer in cats, just know that it is extremely aggressive. She underwent multiple surgeries and was treated with chemo. It may have slowed the cancer down, but it still kept on spreading. It’s in her lungs and elsewhere. We‘ve been giving her medicine for the pain for the last week or so, as I could see she was starting to be uncomfortable. I know it’s not fair to keep her like this so my DH and I decided to let her go today. Its so hard because she’s loving and affectionate and acting mostly like herself…but I know it’s time. And I freaking hate it! I’ve already lost two of my babies in the last year and losing her is unimaginable. She’s special to me. I’ve had a lot of furbabies but we have a strong connection. She’s like my soul mate in cat form. My husband found her on a job site when she was only a couple weeks old. I bottle fed her, I raised her. She’s my baby…and the best cat you’d ever meet. She flops over on my lap for daily snuggles, we spoon in bed every night (I joke that I’m the cream filling in the Oreo, with my DH behind me and her in front of me). She has resacting b*tch face like no cat I’ve ever seen. She is precious to me and I’m going to miss her so damn much.
I want people to know that she was here. That she mattered. That she’s my best friend and the miniature love of my life.
Deepest condolences on her passing. It is hard, it hurts, it is empty but she knows. She knows what you've done and all that you do for her. She is blessed. And she blessed you with her love.
I have to put my cat to sleep today and it’s breaking my heart. She’s my baby. My Zoey bird.
We’ve been fighting mammory cancer for about a year now but it‘s been spreading. If you don’t know anything about mammary cancer in cats, just know that it is extremely aggressive. She underwent multiple surgeries and was treated with chemo. It may have slowed the cancer down, but it still kept on spreading. It’s in her lungs and elsewhere. We‘ve been giving her medicine for the pain for the last week or so, as I could see she was starting to be uncomfortable. I know it’s not fair to keep her like this so my DH and I decided to let her go today. Its so hard because she’s loving and affectionate and acting mostly like herself…but I know it’s time. And I freaking hate it! I’ve already lost two of my babies in the last year and losing her is unimaginable. She’s special to me. I’ve had a lot of furbabies but we have a strong connection. She’s like my soul mate in cat form. My husband found her on a job site when she was only a couple weeks old. I bottle fed her, I raised her. She’s my baby…and the best cat you’d ever meet. She flops over on my lap for daily snuggles, we spoon in bed every night (I joke that I’m the cream filling in the Oreo, with my DH behind me and her in front of me). She has resacting b*tch face like no cat I’ve ever seen. She is precious to me and I’m going to miss her so damn much.
I want people to know that she was here. That she mattered. That she’s my best friend and the miniature love of my life.
Thank you Missy. I know you had the same kind of bond with HRH. The loss is so painful but the thought of living every day without her, that’s unimaginable right now. Thank you for the poem. It is lovely.Oh no, I am so so sorry @elle_71125
I wish I could provide words of comfort to you but we all know the loss of a loved one is so hard and painful and heartbreaking. I am sending you gentle hugs and so many comforting wishes and good thoughts.
In time I hope the memory of her will bring you more joy than pain and that you can take some comfort in the many happy years you shared together and all the love and security you gave her and all you shared together.
I get how terrible it is to lose one's soulmate. It is tragic and heartbreaking. No way to minimize the loss. I am sending you love across the miles and keeping you in my thoughts dear Elle. Your dear Zoey bird will live on in your heart always. ((((Hugs))))
Oddly enough just a short while ago I was feeling the loss of my soulmate cat very strongly and shared a poem in the NIRDI thread that provided me some comfort. I know it is too soon for you to feel any peace but perhaps you would like to see the poem anyway.
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Farewell to thee! but not farewell
To all my fondest thoughts of thee:
Within my heart they still shall dwell;
And they shall cheer and comfort me.
O, beautiful, and full of grace!
If thou hadst never met mine eye,
I had not dreamed a living face
Could fancied charms so far outvie.
If I may ne’er behold again
That form and face so dear to me,
Nor hear thy voice, still would I fain
Preserve, for aye, their memory.
That voice, the magic of whose tone
Can wake an echo in my breast,
Creating feelings that, alone,
Can make my tranced spirit blest.
That laughing eye, whose sunny beam
My memory would not cherish less; —
And oh, that smile! whose joyous gleam
Nor mortal language can express.
Adieu, but let me cherish, still,
The hope with which I cannot part.
Contempt may wound, and coldness chill,
But still it lingers in my heart.
And who can tell but Heaven, at last,
May answer all my thousand prayers,
And bid the future pay the past
With joy for anguish, smiles for tears?
"
I thank you for your kind words. I’m trying to imagine how much happier she is now. Pain free and lounging in a sun patch up there.R.I.P. sweet kitty, run free now across the Rainbow Bridge!
So sorry to hear about your loss.
I know I am on borrowed time with mine that is 18 now. She is still very feisty, and the new dog appears to be bringing out the kitten in her, much to my comfort and relief. Just hope she will stay healthy for as long as possible, and I shan't let her suffer when the time comes.
DK :hugs:
Thank you. It really is the hardest part. I know it‘s worth it for the life we’ve shared, but I still wish she could have lived forever.Always a tough time, I’m so sorry Elle. The worst part about having pets. @dk168 mine is also 18.
Thank you. She really was gorgeous.She is beautiful. I’m so sorry
Thank you. I’m generally a happy person but that feels impossible right now. I just hurt. Knowing it was the right thing to do doesn’t make it any less painful, unfortunately. She really was my soul-mate in cat form. That’s a beautiful way to think of it. Thank you.Oh @elle_71125 I have no words. It feels like a piece of your heart is missing when you lose a soul-mate furbaby. I am so sorry. She was such an important part of your life. My heart goes out to you.
Thank you. Your comment hit me hard because it’s just so honest. It hurts. I feel sick and so damn sad. But I’m so blessed that she loved me. That she chose me to be her person.Deepest condolences on her passing. It is hard, it hurts, it is empty but she knows. She knows what you've done and all that you do for her. She is blessed. And she blessed you with her love.
Thank you. I really appreciate it.Elle, my sincere condolences to you. Many hugs to you during this difficult time!
Thank you. That picture is one of my absolute favorites. It’s just so her, you know. I’m going to miss that sweet face so much!Oh Elle, I'm so so sorry. Thanks for sharing pics of Zoey. That last picture of her just stirring-it's like you can see her beautiful soul. Many, many hugs to you.
Thank you.I’m so sorry for your loss.
Thank you. It’s truly an awful disease and I’m very sorry you had a pet struggle with it as well.So sorry Elle, we had a cat who had mammary cancer as well, it is so hard to see a pet struggle with a terminal illness.
My condolences on the loss of your Zoey.
Thank you. It’s hard having to make that choice, to decide today is the day. I know it was right for her but I hated every moment of it. I truly hope she knows we wanted to save her from suffering. I hope she has found peace.@elle_71125 I am so sorry. Like many others here, I know the emotional pain you are experiencing. But you are doing what is best for her, and she knows how much you love her. Big hugs.
Thank you. It’s definitely a shared pain among animal lovers.I'm so sorry. I know how hard it is.
Thank you.So terribly sorry - hugs to you for peace and comfort!
She really was loved so very much. And the love she gave me…its more valuable than words can say. I’m sorry for the loss of your soul-mate kitty as well. Thank you.Oh, this is so very sad.
I lost my soul mate kitty in 2018.
I hope you can be comforted in the fact that she lived the best life a kitty can have and she was a so very loved by you and your family.
This is it exactly. It’s so hard making that final choice. We do it for them, even though it breaks us into pieces. They deserve the world for all the love they’ve given us.I'm absolutely heart broken for you. We know when its time because they tell us. It dosen't make doing what has to be done any easier. They're never with us long enough.
Thank you Mrs. B. Your comment really touched my heart. My Baby Bird, she really was precious. Known to so few people but she made my life so much better just for having been a part of it. She was my world and my heart. I will miss her terribly. It means a lot to me that you could see and understand that. Thank you.@elle_71125 -
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your darling girl. My dog was the love of my life and I understand what the loss of Zoey means to you.
Nobody can ever really help with grief, but I'd like to take a minute and honor Zoey as the important person that she was, and to acknowledge her as someone unspeakably dear, and her contribution as real and irreplaceable.
I'll be thinking of you today, Elle, and am sending love and shared sadness for this blow to your heart.
Thank you so much for your kind words. “She meant the world to you and you were her world. What a gift that is…” I don’t think you can know how much this touched my soul. It’s beautiful and it feels like pure love. Thank you. Truly.I see her.
She meant the world to you and you were her world. What a gift that is, that little cat shape in your heart. She is with you and you are with her. Together. Always.
Farewell, beautiful Zoey.
Thank you and I’m so sorry you’ve had to experience the loss of a beloved pet. I’d love for you to share a picture here.I'm so sorry, I know how you feel having to have put mine down last year for HCM.