LostSapphire: sending out love, dust, prayers and support to you!!!

[geckodani]

You''re still in my thoughts and prayers LS, through the good days and the bad ones! ((HUGS))

The 5 stages of grief apply to many things, not just death, and I think it''s great that you''re working through the process. Angry can be good and bad - good in the sense that it lights a fire to try to find a way to cope and/or find the best solution to what''s going on. Sometimes you have to get angry before you can get to the acceptance part.

Keep fighting my friend - you''ll find a solution!

 

[LostSapphire]

OK so my big task this week has been to try and find something GOOD about this situation.

Here's what I came up with: I come from a huge family. So does my husband. Usually XMAS is at my house. Last year I did 2 dinners back to back, 3 x 30+ lb turkeys, and 46 people at the first dinner, 34 at the second.

So what's the good thing? I DIDN'T HAVE TO DO ANY OF THAT THIS YEAR! My family decided to cut me a break and I got to just show up at my sister's house for dinner.

My previous "dream XMAS" would have been to be told to bring the buns and butter. This year I didn't have to bring anything. woo hoo


LS

ETA: a warm thank you to whoever got this thread stickied back up to the top. I was feeling a bit more 'lost' than usual, and am so happy to have it where I can find it.

 

[geckodani]

LOL - Hosting at the holidays is stressful! I''m glad they cut you a break!

 

[LostSapphire]

Hi Gecko

How''s that ring these days? Still lovin'' it?

LS

 

[risingsun]

Happy holidays and hang in there

 

[geckodani]

Date: 12/29/2008 12:29:01 PM
Author: LostSapphire
Hi Gecko

How''s that ring these days? Still lovin'' it?

LS

Heck yeah! With every fiber of my blingy self, LOL! It''s so nice to look down at my hand and smile, instead of wishing I was seeing something else!


How''s blueberry?

 

[Catmom]

LS, I''m glad you were able to have a relaxing holiday instead of a stressful one! Hope you are feeling better today.

 

[princesss]

Thinking of you today, LS, and hoping the monster is hiding in its den.

 

[geckodani]

Date: 12/29/2008 12:17:39 PM
Author: LostSapphire
OK so my big task this week has been to try and find something GOOD about this situation.

Here''s what I came up with: I come from a huge family. So does my husband. Usually XMAS is at my house. Last year I did 2 dinners back to back, 3 x 30+ lb turkeys, and 46 people at the first dinner, 34 at the second.

So what''s the good thing? I DIDN''T HAVE TO DO ANY OF THAT THIS YEAR! My family decided to cut me a break and I got to just show up at my sister''s house for dinner.

My previous ''dream XMAS'' would have been to be told to bring the buns and butter. This year I didn''t have to bring anything. woo hoo


LS

ETA: a warm thank you to whoever got this thread stickied back up to the top. I was feeling a bit more ''lost'' than usual, and am so happy to have it where I can find it.

 

[geckodani]

No getting lost my friend. We're here! Moon Over Pigeon Point Lighthouse Credit & Copyright: Tyler Westcott

 

[diamondseeker2006]

Beautiful photo, Gecko!!!

LS, I am glad you were able to enjoy Christmas without the pressure of having all the family at YOUR house!!! I totally understand the need to go through the stages of acceptance of a condition so that you can make good decisions when the time comes rather than acting on emotion.

 

[LostSapphire]

oh God it HURTS

It's at about a 9 on a scale of 1 to 10....d*mn this new med isn't working.

LS

ETA: OK girl. Go get that ice pack and shove it into your face. It WILL help. Give it 20 minutes. And hold onto the puppy at the same time. He'll give you a cuddle.

(sorry for talking to myself....)

 

[Kaleigh]

Date: 12/29/2008 8:39:20 PM
Author: LostSapphire
oh God it HURTS

It''s at about a 9 on a scale of 1 to 10....d*mn this new med isn''t working.

LS

ETA: OK girl. Go get that ice pack and shove it into your face. It WILL help. Give it 20 minutes. And hold onto the puppy at the same time. He''ll give you a cuddle.

(sorry for talking to myself....)

I am so sorry. I wish we could take the pain away LS. Sending you a huge HUG and more prayers.

 

[geckodani]

Oh sweetie.

((HUGS)) I wish I could take the pain away!

 

[Linda W]

OH NO LS, I am so sorry the pain meds aren''t working right now. I wish I could take a hammer and stomp that monster for good.

 

[LostSapphire]

Date: 12/29/2008 8:53:21 PM
Author: Linda W
OH NO LS, I am so sorry the pain meds aren''t working right now. I wish I could take a hammer and stomp that monster for good.

you can''t have the hammer because it''s already in my face

(poor attempt at humour)

LS

 

[LostSapphire]

Sorry folks, every once in a while I lose my MIND with all of this.

The pain is awful, but I also have a horrible numbness in my face, burning in my mouth, and the ice pick shows up occasionally.

I think too, the knowledge that we''re looking at either a) brain surgery (which would be the ''best'' option), or b) an inoperable condition, is what is stressing me out. The options SUCK.

Poor sweet DH is stuck with this lame excuse for a wife, over the christmas holidays. Poor guy. I''m pretty much useless most of the time.

aaagh

LS

 

[Catmom]

Oh LS, I''m so so sorry. I wish so much that there was something we could do for you!

 

[LostSapphire]

Date: 12/29/2008 11:02:59 PM
Author: Catmom
Oh LS, I''m so so sorry. I wish so much that there was something we could do for you!

There is: EXACTLY what you''re doing now! Your support and kind words are so very helpful.

You have no idea how much I appreciate the chance to vent/yell/scream/cry at this situation.

In 2 weeks I should have most of the answers as to what the Docs are going to do about this. In the meantime, thank you for your kindness.

LS

 

[marcy]

LS, I am so sorry you are in such pain and the new meds aren''t working. Hugs to you. You are in my thoughts and I also wish I could come smash that rotten monster to bits for you.

 

[Lorelei]

I truly wish there was something I could do to help....

 

[geckodani]

I hope you are having a better day. ((HUGS))

 

[LostSapphire]

Date: 12/30/2008 12:36:26 PM
Author: geckodani
I hope you are having a better day. ((HUGS))

Yes, thanks Gecko. It seems that the Monster is quite sleepy in the morning, then gets louder as the day goes on.

It''s only mid-afternoon here yet so I am still functioning reasonably well....about a 5 or 6 on a scale of 10.

Going to go and do some baking then start a jigsaw puzzle project with sweet DH....ta ta

Thank you for the hugs. they help a LOT.

LS

 

[diamondseeker2006]

Oh, LS, I think you are handling this so much better than I would. I will continue to pray that you get some relief!!!!!!!

 

[geckodani]

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[LostSapphire]

geez Gecko now ya got me cryin''

 

[geckodani]

Not my intention sweetie, to make you cry. I just know how helpless these situations can make you feel, and I always found the little silly stuff helped me more when dealing with things than anything else. And now I'm crying. I just really, truly wish there was something else I could do.

And if virtual hugs help you know you're not alone, well, then:

 

[Fly Girl]

Hang in there, LS. Thinking of you (and of your beautiful, beautiful, Blueberry)! God, I loved sharing in your search.